Its been about a year since I last posted on this blog. Thats really hard to believe and it makes me a bit sad because I love blogging but I have just been getting worse and I have been really trying to concentrate my efforts on school. My migraines are now non-stop, and I no longer have a couple of pain free days per month. This means every single day I have a migraine and they are usually on the moderate to severe level. This has been really hard to deal with. Over the past year, I have tried multiple preventative medications such as Lyrica, Gabapentin, magnesium, and vitamin B2 just to name a few. My doctor wants to put me on a clinical trial for a CGRP monoclonal antibody which has shown very promising results but I haven’t heard anything from that end yet. Even if I do hear about it, I don’t know if I’m ready to do something like that, its a bit scary and I know I am very sensitive to many medications. But we’ll see what happens.
Another thing I have been experiencing other than the migraines is widespread muscle pain mostly at night. I have extreme, deep, aching pain in my limbs but mostly my calves. The best way I can explain it is it feels like growing pain but I am definitely not growing anymore. Sometimes it is so bad, I can’t walk and I cry myself to sleep because it hurts so bad. The doctor I saw at school thinks it may be fibromyalgia considering my history of chronic pain. Fibromyalgia is often comorbid with migraines. I also experience allodynia which is a painful reaction to touch (which is not normally painful). Often my hair hurts, or my skin burns. I have an appointment later this month with a rheumatologist to figure this out.
On another note, I just finished school for the year and it feels so unbelievably amazing to finally be on summer break. I have pushed myself beyond so many barriers this year. I really put so much effort into my classes despite my pain increasing to daily levels. It has been extremely difficult but I cannot believe I have pulled through once again.
I am completely exhausted and I have been for a while now. When I get home from school or work or volunteering I have to take a 2-3 hour nap and I am still able to go to sleep at night. I wake up feeling extremely unrested, with a bad migraine and dizziness and nausea every morning. I thought this was all due to my migraines and stress from school. But, it was truly validating to recently find out that I am very iron depleted! This could explain why my fatigue is so bad. Of course I know that pain is one reason for the fatigue but now I know it is also due to this! I was extremely surprised to find this out! Its kind of strange because I am not vegetarian. Either way, the doctor says this could possibly explain the migraines increasing to daily, and the muscle pain and the obvious fatigue. This kind of gave me a little bit of hope seeing that taking iron supplementation may possibly improve my headaches. I am trying not to be too hopeful because I hate when things don’t work out and I feel this huge let down and disappointment. So I have been on iron supplementation for the last 3 weeks and I am not seeing any improvement of my fatigue or anything else yet. I do have pretty bad stomach cramps and nausea from it, but its nothing compared to the migraines. I do hope this does improve my migraines just a little bit. Its really hard having no pain free days anymore, so being in pain every single day with no break. It can be very lonely, isolating and depressing.
Now that school is out, I am going to try and relax a little bit and do the things I couldn’t do while I was in school. I hope I can blog more now that its summer! Thanks for listening and following ❤